Relying on God emotionally
I'm a hot mess, but I'm working on it...
Several months ago, ya boi (that’s me) found out he has crippling anxiety.
Okay, it’s not that bad…but it’s still pretty bad.
And it was causing me all kinds of issues, including memory issues.
My brain was so clogged full of worry and anxiety that it was forcing out information because it just couldn’t hold anymore.
So I was forgetting where I was, losing chunks of time, and getting lost on my way to places.
Thankfully, this all only happened a few times before I started to seek help and figure out what was going on with me. (And as a fun little addendum, it also turns out I have sleep apnea, which was not helping any of these issues)
So I started on my journey with meeting with a behavioral therapist and then getting a sleep study done.
But, furthermore, I started praying for God to help me out with my emotions (and the physical spaces those emotions come from…because there is a correlation between emotional and physical).
I quickly realized that some of the best work I could do for my anxiety was to double down on my prayer life. (My behavioral therapist called this meditation, but the concepts transfer)
And, the more abundant my prayer life, the better my emotional state.
The better my emotional state, the better my body feels (generally).
Relying on God emotionally means staying in constant contact with God, but it also means reaching out to those who I trust to keep me accountable.
This means, I have some key people in my life who are praying for me and with me, checking in with me often about where I’m at mentally and emotionally, and that I am continually praying for the Spirit to guide my feelings and thoughts towards the Kingdom.
It’s not easy, but it’s worthwhile to keep practicing and trying.
My prayer for today
Our Father, thank you for helping each one of us as we navigate our emotional inner worlds, our mental worlds, and the ways those two effect our physical bodies. Jesus, remind us that you know how every emotion feels because you have experienced them yourself. Spirit, may my thoughts and feelings be Kingdom thoughts and feelings. Amen.
Remember
You don’t have to have it all together, you just have to be willing to keep working on where you are at. And that means being willing to give every emotion, every thought, over to God…so the Spirit can examine each thought and feeling and help you put it to use for the Kingdom. Amen?